11.03.2008

picures from today

this is always the surreal time, when you don't really feel like you're pregnant (well, except for the nausea and the tiredness and the protruding belly, and then poof. there's a little baby!



10.16.2008

sweet moment

we have a routine at night and it works pretty well. when wes is getting tired we ask if it's bath time and he heads straight for the stairs and his room to get undressed. we proceed to the bath, and then i put on his jammies. dad hold him and gives him his nightly bottle (something alex really wants him to give up but i don't see the point of forcing it) and we read him stories. after a few, we shut off the light, i kiss him goodnight and leave them to their bonding time while he finishes his milk. he never complains about laying down after and drifts off to sleep without incident.

well last night, after the last book, wes proclaimed we were "all done!" and settled back against his dad while i turned off the light.

this time though, he took his bottle out of his mouth, waved good bye and blew me a kiss.

pretty sure i melted right there.

10.01.2008

i just love trips to the ER

though it has been awhile, so i guess we're due.

we took wes in yesterday with his first actual injury. an injury that was - of all things - our fault.

here's the stage. wes loves doors and opening and closing them. he'll do it for hours. every morning we play a game with him while we get ready. it involves one of us getting in or out of the bathroom before wes tries to get in. lame, yes, but he giggles and loves it. unless we get there first and shut the door, then he usually pitches a fit. but he knows it's a game.

well, yesterday was no exception. alex closed the door as usual and wes cried, as usual. it took us a minute to realize that his FINGER WAS CLOSED IN THE DOOR.

COMPLETELY.

i'll be having nightmares about it for the rest of my life thankyouverymuch. he calmed down almost immediately, but his little finger looked like a tetris piece. horrifying. we packed up and headed to the hospital. by the time we got there (10 mins) he was acting completely normally and his little finger was now a sausage.

amazingly, he's fine. nothing is broken/damaged. in fact, by last night you'd be hard pressed to tell that anything was amiss with that little finger.

but we will never be the same, i swear. worst. parents. ever.

9.12.2008

so it begins again

i was looking through my old posts from last time with wes. it seems i've forgotten what the early days are like. i feel... normal. i don't feel any different at all. well, maybe more hungry. and sometimes a little queasy.

i remember last time i was so exhausted and run down. and sick. well, i've been battling a cold so that's no different. but i don't feel the same overbearing fatigue this time. i was talking to a friend of mine about this and she made a very good point. she told me "you're just as tired, you're just used to being tired all the time now." ah but if she isn't a wise woman!

i've been on this kick to get a fun color put in my hair. just one piece, like bright red, or purple. i dunno. i'm probably crazy and i full well realize that. and i probably can't now anyway.. but we'll see. i think it's my rebellious streak coming out.

i was telling some of my new(er) friends how i had all kinds of piercings, back in the day (before they were much more common then they are now) and how i feel "boring" sometimes. i'm sure that started my hair streak obsession.

9.09.2008

let's see who's paying attention








now for the weird part. i had made alex promise awhile back if we ever had a girl we'd name her after my dear, dear friend t (see a few posts back). when am i due? her birthday.

i know it's early, but it's hard not to be excited.

5.22.2008

birthday boy

can't believe it's been a year already.

trying to prepare for the birthday extravaganza weekend. and all i wanted was a little party. no such luck.

5.19.2008

today

today is a hard day for me. today my dear dear friend would have turned 39. would have. passed tense. i still can't believe she's gone.

t was one of those people who just exuded goodness and kindness. the minute you met her you instantly loved her. she was like a sister to me.

august 2006 she got engaged to the man of her dreams. her whole life was ahead of her. they planned to get married the next fall. and then a few short months later in november she was diagnosed with cancer. everything changed.

despite the grueling treatment and uncertain future t remained the bubbly kind optimistic wonderful person she always had been. we had big plans for an "i kicked cancer's butt" party.

eventually she had to stop working and just focused on getting better. they were never -quite- able to figured out where the cancer originated. as such, they were never able to find a treatment that worked.

eventually she decided the chemo needed to stop. she couldn't take it anymore and it wasn't helping anyway, so why bother. i spoke to her the following week and she was as upbeat and happy as ever and was off to visit another friend for the day.

that was the last time i ever spoke to her.

a few days later alex was messing around with my cell phone when it rang. "it's miss t" he said. "answer it! say hello" he did and i saw his face fall. it was her husband. sobbing. telling us she was in the hospital... and it didn't look good.

i immediately started looking for flights. a mutual friend who only lives 2 hours away from t left immediately for the hospital. she didn't even make it there. that was march 28th.

rest in peace t. you had so many people who loved you and miss you so terribly. i am only grateful that your suffering is finally over and that you're in a better place watching over all of us. every time the sun shines i know it's you smiling down.





















this was the last time we got to see her in person, and the first time she got to meet wes. i'm so glad we got that time together.


i miss you t.

2.11.2008

but was it REALLY a promotion?

a few months back my entire company went through reviews. it was strange this year because my new boss was my peer last year until our old boss left. then there was maternity leave (in which my group doubled in size from 3 to 6). when i returned i began shifting towards the job that my old boss did. a departure from what i was hired for, different than what i had done before, but interesting.

plus, i am a graphic designer by trade but after my bout with optic neuritis a few years ago, my color perception has not ever been back to what it was (and for a designer that's not so good...). this new position required a different skill set and less color detail so i wasn't sad to head that way. it was new, it was challenging. it also usually comes with a higher paycheck.

of course, as with most companies, raises are hard to come by. my boss assured me of my awesomeness and how pleased he was with all i had done. and that he didn't have any more money to give me.. yet. sometime early this year he would.

well that hasn't happened yet (which is really ok) but what i am not thrilled about is that i am now expected to travel and be on-site with clients from time to time. i knew that it might happen but had expressed my desire NOT to travel. i don't like to do it anyway but with wes? definitely not into it. unfortunately my time has come.

i leave today to fly to my new client (only about 1.5 hour flight). i stay until thursday. not too bad. except they want me on site each week. and that can be up to 6 (maybe more!) weeks. it is *supposed* to only be 2-3 days/week for the subsequent weeks but egad.

i am not excited, needless to say. never mind that i HATE to fly. and i HATE being in unfamiliar areas... alone to boot.

i tried really hard not to cry dropping off wesley this morning knowing that i won't see him again until thursday night.

never mind that he didn't care (i mean he's only 8 months old after all and truth be told, i'm pretty sure he loves the daycare lady better than me anyway) but i was still a wreck.

i'm about to pack up my computer and get ready to go.

oh, did i mention that i haven't worn work clothes in well voer a year and trying to find something suitable that i felt comfortable in post baby last night was awful?

yeah... so why did i switch jobs again? seriously?

2.05.2008

we have teeth (finally)

it seems that wes has been teething forever. all the drool, all the rubbing of the gums, all the chewing on EVERYTHING. this started at about 2 months. we figured he'd be early with the teeth. even at the 4 month appointment his ped was convinced any day now. well over 4 months later, he finally sprouted those bottom two. barely, they are just poking out. and one is so crooked (like sideways almost) it's crazy. his daycare provider insisted he'll straighten it out with his tongue (?) but whatever. teeth. no photos, as he's not letting us anywhere near his mouth for even a glimpse yet.

not sure what this will mean on the eating front since this kid already eats everything. chicken, pork, beef, anything. and not the baby food variety. straight from our plates. i'm not kidding. i guess he'll be ready for a whole steak soon.

1.28.2008

two in one day? can't be!

well a meme hardly counts.

When you walk in your front door, which room do you enter?
Foyer/Hallway/Living/Dining Room

Do you have a dishwasher?

Yes, and thank goodness. I can dirty up some dished fast.


Is your living room carpeted or does it have hardwood floors?
It's all bamboo everywhere in the house except for where it's ceramic tile. But the living room is definitely bamboo with this giant rug that's really, really cool on it.

Do you keep your kitchen knives on the counter or in a drawer?
In a drawer, it's very dangerous.

House, apartment, duplex or trailer?
House.

How many bedrooms is it?
Four. One is ours, one is our office (we both work at home), one is Wes' and one is the guest room. As soon as we're on our way to #2, Wes will take over the guest room and the smaller room will remain the nursery.


Gas stove or electric?

Gas.

Do you have a yard?

Yes and we are HORRIBLE at taking care of it. It's really quite sad.

What size TV is in the living room?
uh, i dunno. it's flat and voer the fireplace and already got replaced by a bigger flat one (the smaller one is now in the office).

Are your plates in the same cupboard as your cups?
Yep.

Is there a coffee maker sitting on your kitchen counter?

I have one of those k-cup machines. it's awesome.

What room is your computer in?
Office, the second biggest bedroom.

Are there pictures hanging in your living room?
yes a few and there are a pile waiting for me to cut mattes for and frame. i need to get on that.

Are there any themes found in your home?
there's a prevailing japanese type theme around our house. we like japanese art and one of alex's friend's wife is japanese (both his first and current!) and he nows lives in japan and is a painter so that accounts for a lot of the artwork too.

What kind of laundry detergent do you use?
oh something that the diaper place recommended we use for his diapers (we get it at trader joe's.

Do you use dryer sheets?
only on our clothes. not wes' and not on his diapers.

Curtains in your home?

mostly. some bamboo blinds and some horrible ones in our bedroom (leftover from the previous owner EVEN THOUGH WE BOUGHT NEW ONES they are just sitting in our room).

What color is your fridge?

stainless steel which i loathe. (ALWAYS dirty)

Is your house clean?
everything except the office. as a present to me when wes was born alex hired a cleaning lady (who is awesome) and we've kept her since. LOVE LOVE LOVE it. nothing fancy but all the stuff i suck at. she does everything but the office so that's why it's messy.

What room is the most neglected?
cleanliness the office, decoration, our room.

Are the dishes in your sink/dishwasher clean or dirty?
if it's in the sink it's dirty. if it's out to the right of the wink it's clean bottles for wes, if it's to the left of the sink it's dirty dishes.


How long have you lived in your home?

5 years for me, 5.5 for alex. (he bought it before we met)

Where did you live before?
in the "summer home" long story.

Do you have one of those fluffy toilet lid covers on your toilet?
hells no.

Do you have a scale anywhere in your house?
one ofr us in the bathroom, one for foodstuffs in the kitchen.

How many mirrors are in your house?
let's see, one in our bedroom, one in each bathroom (3), one in the dining room, i think that's it. oh i think there's one in the basement (storage)

Look up. What do you see?
straight up? the (white) ceiling in the office. if i look at eye level than my monitor and white board/cork board behind it, window next to that.

Do you have a garage?
Yes, but it's full of crap not cars.

well hello there.

my i've been a bad blogger as of late, but that's totally ok since no one reads this but me anyway.

so what's new... since christmas wes sleeps through the night. my parents were only here 3 times. i turned 31 and wesley got his first haircut!

i am proud to say that my child is now sans mullet, thank you very much. my SIL did the honors yesterday before a bunch of us got together for game night. wes, of course, had zero interest in sitting still so it's a little uneven, but hey, no mullet!

everyone told me i'd be so sad after his first haircut. i'll admit it was strange. he looks so different but it was so necessary. also everyone told me to keep some of tis hair so i hav a baggie of it. i dunno though, it really just creeps me out like i'm some sort of serial killer though, i don't get it. does that make me a bad mom?

eh. it's all good. i can't believe he's 8 months!