but was it REALLY a promotion?

a few months back my entire company went through reviews. it was strange this year because my new boss was my peer last year until our old boss left. then there was maternity leave (in which my group doubled in size from 3 to 6). when i returned i began shifting towards the job that my old boss did. a departure from what i was hired for, different than what i had done before, but interesting.

plus, i am a graphic designer by trade but after my bout with optic neuritis a few years ago, my color perception has not ever been back to what it was (and for a designer that's not so good...). this new position required a different skill set and less color detail so i wasn't sad to head that way. it was new, it was challenging. it also usually comes with a higher paycheck.

of course, as with most companies, raises are hard to come by. my boss assured me of my awesomeness and how pleased he was with all i had done. and that he didn't have any more money to give me.. yet. sometime early this year he would.

well that hasn't happened yet (which is really ok) but what i am not thrilled about is that i am now expected to travel and be on-site with clients from time to time. i knew that it might happen but had expressed my desire NOT to travel. i don't like to do it anyway but with wes? definitely not into it. unfortunately my time has come.

i leave today to fly to my new client (only about 1.5 hour flight). i stay until thursday. not too bad. except they want me on site each week. and that can be up to 6 (maybe more!) weeks. it is *supposed* to only be 2-3 days/week for the subsequent weeks but egad.

i am not excited, needless to say. never mind that i HATE to fly. and i HATE being in unfamiliar areas... alone to boot.

i tried really hard not to cry dropping off wesley this morning knowing that i won't see him again until thursday night.

never mind that he didn't care (i mean he's only 8 months old after all and truth be told, i'm pretty sure he loves the daycare lady better than me anyway) but i was still a wreck.

i'm about to pack up my computer and get ready to go.

oh, did i mention that i haven't worn work clothes in well voer a year and trying to find something suitable that i felt comfortable in post baby last night was awful?

yeah... so why did i switch jobs again? seriously?