i did a stupid thing

since i know it's optic nerve now, i thought i'd go and look up some symptoms of ms so i could see that it was not optic nerve related.

dumb idea.

the first thing listed is a bad eye problem. an optic nerve problem. that in 80% of cases is just in one eye.

i didn't need to know that. or know of the handful of other symptoms i totally have. even though it clearly says that none of the symptoms are specific to ms. i still didn't need to see that.

and to see that the test i had done on my birthday was for this very condtion. and that's the test that showed something.

this is information i really didn't need right now. i'm supposed to hear from the BO tomorrow to see if i can get sqeezed in before the 28th.

this is the kind of shit that makes you want to postpone a wedding.