it's always a money thing

so, alex and i have been together for a little over 2 months now. not once have i paid for anything when we go out. ok, that's a lie actually. we used to just meet for movies for the first few weeks and i'd always buy the drinks (because i felt bad that he was always buying the tickets, didn't want to make it seemed like i expected him to, you know?) at any rate... he pays for everything. in fact, i think he might be a little offended when i go to. even over little stuff. like when we went to the art fair, we had to take the shuttle in and i went to get our passes and he wouldn't let me get them. i had kind of come to terms with it. thinking, ok a dinner here and there, a movie once a week, that's ok. right? figuring that when my stuff arrived (which, yay! it did) i'd start cooking for him and things like that, thinking that would kind of even out.

enter the stratford festival. so he's asks me to go a few weeks back. i have no idea what is involved or anything. now we're picking the plays, planning the weekend and i happen to go check out ticket prices (after he tells me last night that we're getting like the best seats for one of the plays). um, they're like $100 each. plus, if we're going for the wekeend we'll need a place to stay, and apparently all the places around there are expensive. (i have no idea what the plans are for that yet) and since we'll likely be doing other things as well... this is going to be a very expensive weekend!

now, i'm broke. he knows that. there's been no mention of me paying for anything during this mini-vacation. but, come on. it i was already uncomfortable with him paying for a movie every week, i'm not ok with this. so what do i do? tell him i can't go since i can't contribute? what will hurt his feeling more? not going, or feeling bad about him paying for everything? and if i had the cash for something like this, it would be a non-issue. unfortunately, i don't. half the time when we go to dinner or whatever i'd offer to pay but i just don't even have the cash for that.

so what's the right thing to do? i already emailed him this morning saying that hey, this is going to be expensive, we need to talk about it. so we'll see what happens tonight i guess...

ugh.